I die today, to die tomorrow...

I’ve jumped into a sea of black waters,
desperately waiting to drown.
Waiting for bereavement to come my way,
unable to hit the ocean ground.
don't want to relapse the shore,
this final verdict feels so pure.
I’m not dead as yet, but I was never alive,
deeper and deeper in depth I dive.

Jumped off a cliff, having a free fall,
feel so light, I stretch tall.
can't hear a thing, not a sound around,
life is ascertain, death is bound.
Making my way to the final end,
no smiles to give, no tears to lend.
The last journey- no pride, no grace,
Bid me farewell, one last embrace.
Hold a gun right next to my skull, 

when you see it from here, life isn't that dull.
I pull the trigger, and there I go,
was I alive just a second ago?
Let myself loose, and fall so hard,
what’s giving up on corpse when heartbeat is barred.
Fisted palms I gulp the poison,

A judgment for the sins I’ve done.

Tastes like the sweetest thing I’ve tasted,
to put an end to the life I’ve wasted.
My mind is numb, it kills the flesh,
winding up to whatever is left.
And with that, I die again,
to end today's agony and prepare for tomorrow's pain.
May this soul rest in peace tonight,
for tomorrow I shall jump another height.
End to me won't be an end to sorrow,
I die today to die tomorrow.